I have always loved Jesus, believed in Him since I was a kiddo. But In my adulthood, I experienced Him holding me together and surrounding me with people to help keep me standing.
04.05.06 will go down as the worst day of my life. Over the phone, I heard my brother say, "Daddy's gone". I couldn't grasp that my INVINCIBLE Dad committed SUICIDE. He shot himself in the head while at his worksite. I had just seen him on his birthday, 04.01.06, he seemed fine. There was so much anger, many questions and emotions.
Why couldn't I have stopped it? Why didn’t I have the words to say to keep him alive? I went through a FLOOD of struggles after losing my Dad. I struggled with my relationship with God. I was angry with Him for letting this happen. I was in complete grief and was disappointed in God, my Dad and life. I struggled with anxiety, sadness and heartbreak.
Because of this tragic event in my life, overtime, I grew closer to God. I don't forget the hardships; they are what helped shape me. Jesus has given me strength to go out of my comfort zone, put one foot in front of the other and let my guard down. There are people I may not know but need to meet because their story and my story might need to mesh for the story that He has already written.
He has also given me the opportunity to volunteer at church in CT justice.
I am thankful for all of the many blessings in my life. I know that God is working this thing called life all around us. He brought my family and me to Cross Timbers and I am so happy he did.